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Friday, August 15th, 2008
7:38 pm	Wedding dilemma Okay, so Steve and I finally decided on a date for the wedding...October 10, 2009. Yup, it's far away, but it worked best with our schedules. Mom turns 60 next year and wanted to family to join her in Holland for this amazing 4-day walk thingy, then a cruise somewhere around Europe. So, Steve would have to take 2 weeks of vacation time for that. That knocked out having the wedding during Spring Break or even the summer. So we picked October, but he still wouldn't have enough days for a proper honeymoon. We really want to go to Costa Rica, and apparently October is an extremely rainy month for Costa Rica. Not good. So we would get married in October, take a few days off to go to a mountain resort, then take a proper honeymoon in April over Spring Break (2010). Now my mother has cancelled her trip to Holland b/c she figured it was way too much work to get the family coordinated and the trip coordinated. We would also have to train for months for this walk. And I think she felt bad that we had to work our wedding plans around her birthday. So, now all dates are open. What do you think? We could try to get it all together by April and take a honeymoon in Costa Rica, but we would be rushed and might not get our first choice of where we got married. Also, some family might not be able to make it since it's during the school year....and my cousin's wife will have just given birth, so they're not going to be able to come. Second choice is get married over the summer, but it's hella hot and we wouldn't be able to go to Costa Rica b/c it would be very rainy and muggy (it rains like 25 inches a month in June!). So, we would have to go somewhere else for our honeymoon, or delay it. 3rd choice is stick with original plan. We still wouldn't want to go to Costa Rica then. I kinda feel like either April or the summer is the best bet. I kinda don't want to have to wait until October to get married, and I would love to have an actual honeymoon after the wedding. It would be anti-climactic if we didn't have one. So I dunno. Steve and I are going to look at some places tomorrow and see where we like. Then we'll see what dates they have available. Oh, and if we get married earlier, it means I have to start shopping for my wedding dress NOW!!! Which means major diet starts now. I've already started the diet, but I would have to be hardcore. I don't know. Help me decide. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 16th, 2008
3:13 pm	I have a problem Yup, it's a big one. I need to fix this problem soon or Steve is going to kill me. I can't stop crying. Last week I had a bit of a breakdown where I cried for like the entire day. I cried over the fact that I am becoming an adult and there is so turning back now. I'm getting married. I'm buying a house. I felt my freedoms have already been squashed. So I freaked out. Steve held me and let me cry. Now I can't stop crying over wedding things. Everytime I see something on TV about weddings, I cry. I cried while watching "Engaged and Underage" on MTV. I cried when those 19-year old lesbians said their vows. I watch "Say Yes to the Dress" and I cry when the couples tell about how they met. Last night my realtor asked me how Steve and I met, and I could barely tell the story without crying. I read bridal magazines and look at the song suggestions they have for first dances, and I start to tear up. So the wedding is probably going to be in over a year. I can't be crying for an entire year!!! I won't be able to shop for a wedding dress or even invitations without crying!!! I told Steve about this and he said I need to take classes to teach me how not to cry. I mean, when we get married, I'm going to be walking down the aisle, tears flowing, nose sniffling, blowing my nose on the lovely hankie that I embroidered. I won't be able to get through our vows!!! When I think about it, I start tearing up. That's not good. It kinda makes me want to get married sooner so I won't have to keep crying!!! Maybe I can cry a whole bunch the week before my wedding and get all my tears out of my system. Does it work that way? Can you ever run out of tears? Well, hopefully I can stop crying. Maybe I'll just make a spreadsheet and get down to the nitty-gritty of the wedding. That might help. Maybe my type A part of my personality can come out and save me from my tears. I think I'll cry no matter what. I'm just so excited to get married to Steve. Maybe we'll be like Heidi Klum and Seal and renew our vows every year, so I can get all that romantic crying stuff out of the way every year. Okay, onto making my spreadsheet. Maybe I can stop crying. We'll see. Current Music: "Vintage Country" - mix CD from Starbucks! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 1st, 2008
4:33 pm	Mrs. Osler I got my ring sized down yesterday. Steve was paranoid that it was going to fall off after seeing my brother-in-law lose his ring in the snow. Now it's not going anywhere. But I get to the store where Steve bought the ring. The lady asked me the last night on the account and I answer with "Osler." The lady in charge of repairs came out and asked, "Mrs. Osler?" I then proudly replied, "Mrs. Osler-to-be." It felt good being called Mrs. Osler. That is going to be my name one day. I felt so grown-up and important then. Well, the future Mrs. Osler is going to Florida to hang out with her future in-laws. This should be interesting. It'll be me, Steve, his parent, his brother Drew with his girlfriend Pam, and his brother George with his wife Tiffany. Thankfully Steve and I are staying in a hotel some nights so we are not completely crowded at his parents' house. Maybe George will get drunk and repeat the Cake Incident of 2007. I can only hope. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 30th, 2008
2:24 pm	Wedding Dress Woes I think Steve and I have picked a date for our wedding. It's going to be sometime in October, 2009. I think. That might change. But this week I was in Montreal with the family and my cousin Lucie and my sister decided to take me shopping for wedding dresses. This will have been my very first time shopping for wedding dresses. I've tried on a few before, either for Halloween or when I was helping Meghan buy hers. But I spent a week going through bridal magazines with Tania, ripping out photos of dresses, invitations, and bouquets. Meghan bought me a Bridal Bargains book, which actually freaked me out. I got so scared that I would end up with a cheap, horrible wedding dress and end up spending $800 on it and not being happy. I thought I was prepared. We went to the first store and the lady at the store had me look through a catalogue and point out which ones I liked. There wasn't much. I know I am going for more of a casual wedding. Steve is going to wear a suit, not a tuxedo. We're not fancy people. We never have been and we probably never will be. We don't have designer labels on anything. Steve's wardrobe is made up of t-shirts and Gap shirts. I would love to live my life in jeans, a tank top, and some flip-flops. All the dresses in the catalogue were over the top with beading and embroidery and bustling. They were all too much. I felt bad telling this lady I didn't like many of her dresses. I try on my first dress. It's very simple, a sheath dress perfect for the beach. I loved it, even though I could see my green and black panties through the dress. Oh well. Tania, Lucie, and the salesperson did not like it, saying it was too simple. I loved it, despite the fact it looked kinda cheap. I try on an A-line dress with a beaded and laced bodice. It hurt to put on. My boobs are still scratched from it. Everyone oohed and ahhed over it. I wanted to rip it off. I hated it. The bodice was so thick and I felt like I was wearing cardboard. They put a veil on me, then a tiara, then a necklace. I didn't want to look at myself in the mirror. When I did, it didn't look like me. I felt so weird and so out of place. I got depressed. I went to another store and didn't find anything. I tried on a bridesmaid dress that was under $300 that they could get in white or off-white. It was nice, but it was just cheap. I didn't want to walk down the aisle in a bridesmaid dress. I wanted to walk down the aisle in a wedding dress. We had lunch. I ate fattening food despite the fact that you could see every bump in my ass in some of the dresses. The poutine was yummy. The last store. We walk upstairs and there on a mannequin was this beautiful dress made out of raw silk. It had no beading or lace or anything, except on the straps. It had a full skirt and had a very simple top. It was beautiful. I tried it on and it was a size 8, so it did not fit. The salesperson said sher would give it to me for $700 and I could put laces in the back. It was beautiful. The fabric was raw silk!!! It was real quality. But it still wasn't right. It didn't feel like me. It was fancy and I felt like Steve would have to wear a tuxedo and we would have to change our wedding ideas. So I came home depressed. I took out all the magazine pictures and let Steve look at them. He picked out a few dresses he would love to see me in. Let me tell you, I love that man. We are so perfect for each other b/c he picked out the ones that had simple lines and that were either lace or cotton. These dresses went perfectly with the informal wedding we had planned. It confirmed to me that I need to pick a dress that I love and not worry what other people say. Steve and I know who we are as people and I am not going to let anyone sway me from that idea. I know what I like. I know that whatever I pick, Steve will find stunning. The only problem now is finding one that is in my budget. It looks like I'm going to have to save some money now. Ouch. Wish me luck. (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 7th, 2007
5:19 pm	First apartment purchase! I know it's been awhile. I've been busy....or just not interested in writing on here anymore. But last night I was sitting at my computer trying to come up with things to put in Steve and my "One Year" box and wished I had documented everything we did together so I could remember. Damn this bad memory. Damn this lack of livejournal desire. So, here is the beginning of my documentation. You think I'd have learned something in grad school about documenting to cover my ass. Oh well. Steve and I move in together in 3 weeks. Well, he moves in Saturday, I move in in 3 weeks. So, last night we went shopping for some apartment necessities: a dish drying rack, a nice garbage can that you don't have to touch, and a dust buster. We succeeded in making our first purchase together. We bought a dish drying rack. We both found the huge display of them in Target and pondered over them for 10 minutes before picking out this one. I feel happy. Oh, we also bought a recipe box. I feel very grown up. This is really happening. We visited our apartment on Saturday and it didn't suck!!! I'm used to these people 9 foot ceilings with crown molding and garden tubs. This has like 7 or 8 foot ceilings and small bathtubs I can't fit into. But it was nice (minus the huge dead roach in the middle of a bedroom). I get my own craft room/office!!! I get a shoe closet!!! I get to wake up to Steve's squished up face every morning. Does life get better than this? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 19th, 2007
8:34 pm	updates So I made an appointment with a doctor. I am going to get my nose checked out, as well as other things. Kate's husband, Chris, has a deviated septum and has to go through surgery this week. Apparently it's very expensive. Maybe I won't go through with it. I don't know. That's a pretty big deal. I guess I'll see what the doc says. And I'm also going to get my anemia checked out and my anxiety. I had a mini-anxiety/panic attack Friday night. I'm sure I freaked Steve out. I started to hyperventilate. I saw the movie "Children of Men" and it scared the shit out of me. It is by far the most bleak movie I have ever seen. It makes me want to slit my wrists (not really). It makes me want to try to lobby for a recycling area in my complex, though. And then I started to freak out about what would happen if my parents died. Then I started to freak out about my new job (I'll go into details about that later). I then started to freak out about moving in with Steve. And then after I freaked out about all that, I started to freak out that Steve would leave me because I was crazy. Sigh. That's a lot of freaking out for a night. Oh, and then Steve started to freak out because I freaked out about moving in with him. Needless to say, I need to get something for my anxiety. and I will definitely need something for my anxiety to help me with my new job. Yup, it's another new job for me. I changed schools already once this year. I am now jumping ship to start up my own high school with my old API from East Meck. I will be the one and only counselor there with him. He asked me to come over with him, so I agreed. There is also a hefty raise and signing bonus! I will be the new counselor at the Math and Sciences high school at Garinger. I will be dealing with about 200 freshmen and sophomores, which is much better than my 240 seniors or 500 freshmen. I'm relieved, and stressed. I was so anxious at East that I got a stomach ache every single morning. Well, I'm in charge now, which is scary as shit. I'll be going to all the department chair meetings. I'll be organizing the orientations and PSAT nights and possibly all the testing. Geez. No stress for my second year. But, I can mold the department the way I like. I can even buy all new clothes to make me look more mature! Oh, I've lost a total of 13 pounds now! Only 15 more to go!!! So, I'll also be thin then! So that's me. Oh, and I am desperately trying to get back into crafting. I think I need to kill my TV. It6 drives me crazy!!! I am so addicted to it!!! When I hang out with Steve, I just want to watch all his TiVo. I mean, I am addicted to TV!!! We'll see if I can pull myself away from it. Maybe tonight I can try to organize my yarn while I watch 24. We'll see. Okay, I gotta get ready for bed and then watch me some 24! I'm so addicted to that show. By the way, it feels very weird to be writing on my livejournal. It's been so long. i'm not sure I enjoy writing my life down for people. I feel I tell so many people what's going on that it's just redundant. I wish I was cool enough to show off some photos, but alas, I am not. Damn tv takes up my computer time. Gotta go!!! Love you all! Current Mood: busy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 15th, 2007
9:19 pm	damn I think I have a deviated septum. My nose is crooked and something on one side looks swollen. I then looked at photos of deviated septums and they looked like my nose (despite the hairyness of those noses). I'm freaking out now. Do I need surgery? I guess this is forcing me to go to a doctor. Damn. (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 11th, 2007
9:38 pm	He loves me Yup, Steve loves me. He told me yesterday. As Meghan so aptly responded, "It's about damn time!" I had a good weekend, in case you couldn't tell. I'm in love!! Current Mood: loved (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 31st, 2007
8:15 pm	Will you feel better? I've been having a crap time at work lately and have been so exhausted because of it. In fact, I'm going to a doctor soon to see if my fatigue is normal or abnormal...especially since I'm uber-thirsty all the time. so, during my stressed days, I call or e-mail Steve to rant. Today I ranted a bit more than usual, I guess. I get a call at 7:45 from him asking if I had a few minutes to talk. He then asks if he could open the door. He shows up with a beautiful bouquet of flowers for me. They are mainly purple and pink flowers and they made my entire night. He is the best!!! I have the best boyfriend in the world. And he wore the hat that I knit him that only goes with one sweater he owns (which he bought to match the hat). Good boyfriend, huh? Well, back to work I go. Damn scholarships. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, September 16th, 2006
3:57 pm	random updates So, work has been going pretty well. I have been at workshops a bit this past week so I missed 2 whole days of work. Score! I love workshops. But, that means there is so much more work waiting for me when I get back. Boo. I have a kid who got suspended and will probably go to the alternative school (again). I had a student flirt with me while I was trying to get his classes fixed. He kept asking me about how I like being a counselor and being at East. then we talked a bit about the mountains. He's a nice kid. I joined the Faculty Fit Club along with another counselor. Hopefully this will give me motivation to lose weight. I've been really slacking on that lately. I've been eating just about anything and not exercising as much since I get so exhausted from work. Buffy kinda made friends with my neighbor's dog. I held Buffy while Dustin held Tootsie. They sniffed each other. There was no hissing or scratching. The 2nd time they met, Tootsie kept trying to lick Buffy, and she did not like that. Buffy started to hiss. But this is progress from the time when she beat up KC. and I discovered that Buffy has dandruff. So, I tried to give her a bath last night. She was not happy and the bath never happened. I guess I'll take her to PetsMart to get her bathed and to have her claws clipped. Tonight is my second date with Steve. We are going to The Dish for dinner, then to The Perch for a comedy show, and then probably to Thomas St. for drinks unless we are tired of each other by then. We talked Wednesday and Thursday night on the phone. He's really cute. I really want to go to his first kickball game Sunday, but I promised I'd wait. I totally feel like a high schooler going to see her boy play in the big football game....except this is a bunch of adults playing kickball. Oh, and damn Dustin still has like 5 of my CDs. I forgot to get them back from him last time I saw him. Bastard. I mean, I don't mind that he gave me the fade since I didn't like him, but I want my CDs. I washed my car yesterday. I never do that. I mean, I think this is the first time I have actually washed the car all by myself since I got it in 2002. Usually I'd go through a car wash or have my dad wash it for me. I went to Target with Cam and bought a bucket, some car wash soap, some ArmorAll wipes, and a special sponge. It took me a bit over an hour to complete it, but it is very clean. I washed it, cleaned the tires, did all the windows, vacuumed the interior, threw all the garbage away, and Armor Alled the entire thing. I even got to vacuum up the spilled kitty litter from the trunk. I feel great. It was awesome driving a clean car to the gym today. I deserve a pat on the back. And I splurged yesterday and bought the CD from Ok Go. I bought it purely b/c their new video is awesome. It gives me minutes of joy every time I watch it...and the song is pretty good. I had a blast at the gym today actually running on a treadmill while the song was playing. Ah, if only the treadmills weren't all in the same direction. Okay, gotta go make me super pretty for my date. What do you think? Jeans, a cute top, and flats? Jeans, a cute top, and silver or black heels? A skirt? Ot Zach's vote, a towel? Current Mood: chipper Current Music: Rilo Kiley, "The Frug" (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, September 13th, 2006
9:27 pm	yay I have another date with Steve, the librarian. I'm mucho excited. We're going to dinner at The Dish and then off to The Perch for some improv comedy. He called me tonight and we chatted for a bit until he had to go play trivia with the library bunch. How cute is that??? And he has his first kickball game Sunday and I joked that I was going to come see him play. I agreed to wait a few weeks so they can get good...or at least get uniforms. He's cute. I like him. He said he'd call me tomorrow to solidify plans. Wish me luck! (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, September 10th, 2006
7:50 pm	my weekend I had a date this weekend. Last ngiht I went out with this guy from match.com...Steve. We e-mailed a couple of times and he called me Friday to make plans. He seemed pretty witty over the phone. I walk up to Philosopher's Stone. I see him waiting. He's realyl cute. He's tall with brown hair and glasses. He hugs me and tells me that I look beautiful and comments on how my hair is different from my pictures. I tell him that he's really cute. His reponse was: "I never hear that. Most people say that I'm a troll." Yup, he's funny and witty. We met at 7:00 and stayed until 1:30 am. We went through veggie quesadillas and 5 beers each. For some reason I wasn't even drunk after those beers. We just talked for the entire time. I think he even said that he liked me. There were some awkward moments. There were pauses between exchanging stories where we had no idea what to say. He is very animated with his gestures and different voices. That has the possibility of getting to be too much. He's a bit of a geek. He's a librarian at CPCC. He's smart and funny and cute and has the same taste in music and movies as I do. He said he would be my concert buddy. He also joined a kickball team, which I find very humorous. He told me I could watch his games. How cute would that be? I'd be the girl sitting on the bleachers or stands, cheering for my man. Yeah, I hate sports, but I can find joy in a bunch of adults playing kick-ball. He insisted of paying for everything, which was nice. I did the nice thing and offered to pay for my half. I think he and I make about the same amount, so splitting bills is probably the right thing to do. He asked me if he could walk me to my car. And he did and he kissed me. He's a pretty good kisser. He ddn't slobber or stick his tongue down my throat. They were just sweet kisses. And he e-mailed me today, saying he had a good time. He said he'd talk to me in a few days. So now I have to make a decision. To have sex or not to have sex. At the end of the date he said something like, "So I guess coming over to your place is out of the question." He said that since I am pet and house sitting. I think I might like this guy. If so, I think I should hold out a little before I sleep with him. I might have to break the 3 date rule. Eh, we'll see. I'm just excited to see him again. He's tall and is larger than me. He's cute with nice teeth, nice skin, and cute glasses. I think I do like him. Current Mood: content (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 7th, 2006
9:23 pm	Big news I got cable. As of 7:15 tonight, I got cable. I now have cable. In 2 weeks I'll have a tv in my bedroom with cable as well...and a DVD player. I doubt I'll ever get out of my apartment. I no longer have to go to the gym to watch tv. So far I have watched "House Hunters" on HGTV and a couple of episodes of "Extreme Makeovers." I love it. I am watchinf Fox now and I no longer have to adjust the rabbit ears every 4 minutes. Oh, have you ever seen the show "Duets?" It's the funniest thing ever! Celebrities get to attempt to sing on TV with famous singers. Chris Jericho was voted off last week. So sad. I'm voting for Hal Sparks. Okay, the computer is taking away from my valuable tv time. Current Mood: ecstatic (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, August 28th, 2006
9:50 pm	okay day Today was another long day filled with scheduling. The horror was broken up by amusing anecdotes about stupid kids who have no idea how to read theri schdules or who try to change classes they specifically asked for. I had one moment when I felt like crying when a coworker was trying to explain something to me and I just couldn't understand and she said, "I just don't know how else to explain this to you," and walked away. I know she was in a abd mood and tired of doing work for students who are not hers, but still. So, I was in a semi-pissy mood and felt bad for always asking someone a question about little things I didn't know. I felt like an annoyance. Then it comes to be 3:00. The EC department chair comes to ask me a question about a student. I answer his question and we discuss the student. He then tells me I am so much better than the person who used to be in that office. He could have been really nice and referred to the lady I replaced. Or he could have be joking and was trying to piss off Betsy, who used to be in that office but moved to the one next door. I'd like to think he meant it in the former way. So, I kinda got a compliment today from a coworker. Okay, I'm tired. I have lots of work to do tomorrow and students coming early to see me. Fun fun. (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 27th, 2006
12:33 am	Can we take the next hour and talk about me? Or can you take the next 5 or 10 minutes and read about me? Whatever. I just got home and can finally relax after a very long week. "Wait, it's Saturday," you say. "Don't you start relaxing on Friday?" Well, not really, apparently. This week wasn't that bad. It was just long. I worked last Saturday for 4 hours. I worked Monday from 9:30 until 8 pm. I worked tuesday. Wednesday I worked over 14 hours. Thursday I worked until 4 or so. Friday I also worked normal hours. I had to go into work today for a few hours. They let me know that the school would be open for me Sunday if I wanted to come and work. I had to hold myself back from laughing in their faces. Work hasn't been that hard. I got a great e-mail from an extremely gracious parent. I had a conversation with a non-so gracious parent. I met a few kids. I started to set up my office. I realized that having the office in the back is bad. First, I get all the noise from people talking by the copy machine. Second, if I am in the front room and forget something, I have a long way to walk to my office and then back to the front room. Third, I miss out on conversations that happen with all the other counselors b/c I am so far away. Damn this office. Oh, and there is no window, so I feel like i'm in a prison. Yippee!!! Last night I tried to relax by going out for beers with Meg and Cam. By 11:00, we were all falling asleep. Sucky. I planned on getting wasted. Instead, I got a little bit tipsy and very sleepy. Oh well. I thought I could relax today. i woke up at 8 to get ready to go to work. I work from 10 until 1ish. We have a parent practically break into our offices to try to get his daughter's schedule fixed. Um, hello? Do we look open? I mean, our windows are dark and the doors are locked. Take a hint. And since some counselors didn't come in, we were somewhat expected to cover their slack. Um, no. After work I grab lunch with 2 counselors. I feel so left out of the conversation. It was so awkward. I hated it. Oh well. Then it was time for shopping with Meghan. We got a lot accomplished. She got some pants. I got some awesome stuff for my office, as well as this dress I've been drooling over at Banana. It was originally $168 and I got it for $30. I kick ass. It kicks ass. I realized that my pretty purse was ruining my clothes. Apparently it rubs against the fabric and makes the fabric pill. Icky. So I bought a faux white leather purse that is awesome...and smooth!!! After several exhausting hours, we get back to Meghan's house. I go to my car to put my bags away. I notice a bunch of scratches on it. Then I noptice more scratches...and then more scratches!!! They were all pretty shallow scratches, but there were tons there! I could not remember what could have caused those. Then I remembered. Last night when we left the bar, there was an "altercation" in the parking lot and 2 police men were out there. The "altercation" occurred next to my car. I'm guessing that someone was leaning against my car and scratched it up with a belt or jeans. Not good. I started to cry. I was so tired and so exhausted and PMSing. I cried. Meg and I spent 30 minutes calling the police, the bar, and my insurance company. Basically, nothing can happen. I have to pay to get it fixed. The police can do nothing. I have a $250 deductible. I'm screwed. My pretty car is not so pretty anymore. Within 1 year, it was hit in a parking lot twice and not fixed. Then last year it was hit in the parking lot and fixed...badly. Now this!!! Poor car is getting beat up. Anyways, I was completely bummed. And then I started to think. Thinking is bad. I think too much. And I was thinking that the only person I had to comfort me in Meg. I had no guy to come home to. Hell, I have no roommate to come home to. All I have is a damn cat that beats me up. During the week when I am exhausted, I vent to Ben on the phone b/c there is nobody here. No wonder counselors need their own counselors. I would go crazy. I might go crazy. I don't know if I can handle this job and my life all on my own. I haven't been able to exercise this week,. which is a normal stress-reliever for me. I either have no time or I pass out before I make it to the gym. I've been eating crap all week. I've just been in a pissy mood and this damn car thing made it all worse. Meg made me dinner and I just kept crying. I want things to be good. I want to not cry all the time. I want to be able to handle normal stressors. I handle my job just fine. So far I haven't cried at work, which is a new thing for me. 2 other people have broken down so far. Not me. Hopefully I can keep that up at work and only break down at home. But who do I have to turn to? Who will hug me and hold me as I cry? Nobody, really. Hah, what a pathetic thought. But Meg and I then went to the movies to try to distract me. We saw "Little Miss Sunshine." It was the best fucking movie I have seen in a long time. I cannot recall a movie that made me laugh so hard I cried. It was on and off humorous until the end when the entire audience lost it. I mean, I laughed so hard I cried. It was hilarious. The casting was fabulous. Everything about it was great. I loved every minute of it. But now I am home. My legs ache. The scratches are still all over my car. I am still home alone in my messy apartment with a cat who tries to beat me up. I have dishes to do and laundry to do. I need to find my bills in my mess and pay them. I need to sleep. I need to sleep for as long as I possibly can...as long as it doesn't go past 11:00. Then I go to the gym, work out for 2 hours, and then watch Project Runway with Kate. Ah, to have cable. I keep saying I'm going to get cable. I go to the website to order it, and when it says it can't eb installed for another 2 weeks, I get discouraged. I then remember a coupon I can get through CMS and I put it off b/c I'm too busy during work to call HR about the coupon and it's a viscious cycle that will make me not be able to watch Project Runway at my apartment ever!!! Oh, another good moment today was when I went to Banana. Everyone hugged me. They were all so happy to see me. My manager Greg was on the phone and made a point to hug me. It felt great. I miss that place, but I'm too exhausted to work there as well. Hopefully I can get back in there in a couple of weeks. Thanks for reading. I need to get some sleep. i'm exhausted. Hopefully I won't dream about scheduling tonight. I probably will. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, August 26th, 2006
12:14 am	Meme madness Instructions: Answer the questions by clicking play on your music player and paste the song title for each question, remember it's on shuffle, you don't decide, it does, SO NO CHEATING!: 1. YOU'RE* BEING CHASED BY AN GIANT SQUID! "Spam" by Save Ferris. Maybe Giant Squids hate Spam. I mean, Spam scares me. 2. You meet Itachi for the first time and you scream: "Shiny Happy People," by REM. That's a way to scare Itachi. 3. You see Batman at the beach and he proclaims: "Hotel California," by The Eagles. Maybe he lost his hotel and is hoping that it'll answer him. 4. You dance in the rain to: "Missing You" by Imogen Heap. 5. The Monster has his poison claws to your neck. "Any last words?" "Yes," you choke: "She's The One," by Robbie Williams. Yup, I'd try to distract the monster by making him go after another girl. 6. Your surfing music: "I Love Rock and Roll" by Joan Jett. Are there any jukeboxes in the ocean? 7. You have your own anthem it is: "Goodnight Goodnight" by Hot Hot Heat. My theme song is about me dumping guys. Sure. 8. Michael Jackson sits down on a bus beside you. He says: "Lovefool" by The Cardigans. And then I run away. 9. Your secret crush asks you out, you reply: "Ain't Got Time," by Far Too Jones. That sucks. I can't be too busy to go out with my crush. 10. A bear starts to attack you. You cry out: "Feelin' Groovy." Maybe it will help the bear make the moment last. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, August 21st, 2006
10:23 pm	is it Friday yet? I am already exhausted...and it's only Monday. I got into work today at 9:30. Most counselors said they were coming around 11 or 12 since we have to stay late. But, since I am behind on my students' schedules, I had to get in there relatively on time. I stayed there until almost 8:00. It was horrible. I spent most of my time in front of my computer in my dark office typing in stuff. I got up to pee and ask a few questions, and that's basically it. I ate my lunch in 5 minutes at my desk. dinner consisted of me driving to Bojangles and eating half of my food on the way back to school. Most of the counselors went out to eat, but I didn't have the time. I have to be at work tomorrow at 7 am. I have a family coming at 7:30 to register a student. I have 2 other families coming in as well. I called 2 seniors to come talk to me about their schedules since I can't figure out how to give them all of their classes. And those are the only students i know about!!! I'm sure there are tons of other families that will come in, needing to register. I have families in from out of state and need to assign them classes and grades and I don't know how to do that. I am already exhausted. I doubt I'll get a decent lunch tomorrow. I plan on working 7-5. That's no fun. People usually work 8-5 and get an hour lunch break. I get random pee breaks and can eat my sandwich at my desk. I have like 200 or so schedules to go over. All of these need to be done before Friday and in between registering new students. I can't wait for the weekend. I am going to sleep, work out, and get trashed. Yup, Saturday night I plan on drinking so much I might actually puke...or maybe forget what happened this week. I hope everyone else is having a good week. Oh, and isn't my ID badge the cutest?? I wish I could blow up and frame that photo. Current Mood: exhausted Current Music: Nellie McKay (Comment on this)
Thursday, August 17th, 2006
11:08 pm	crap So today was a pretty pointless day at work. I felt like crap this morning and wasn't even sure if I could make it to work. Somehow the 30 minute drive seemed way too long to go without a bathroom break. I magically made it there, limping to my office since it hurt to stand up straight. I still had no kepys to my office, so someone had to let me in. I managed to hobble over to the cafeteria for the breakfast, which i didn't eat. I smiled pretty as some high schooler took my picture and asked me who my favorite super hero is. I sat through a boring meeting. I was introduced and I got some wonderful responses on my Buffy the Vampire Slayer answer to my favorite superhero. It totally beat all the girls who said Wonder Woman. Then, we headed to our offices. I realized I couldn't get onto my computer or NC Wise. Then all the counselors went on NC Wise and it froze....for the rest of the day. I did manage to get my voice mail set up and answer my first phone call. I got my first voice mail message, but it was only from Betsy, another counselor. I got my alphabet. I am the counselor for letters Brp - E. Who the hell has the last name that starts with Brp? Since NC Wise was down, I get the lucky job of coming in Saturday and perhaps some night next week. Yippee!!! I then came home and went to the gym despite my ab pains. I managed to work out, which was good. I leg presed 240 today. Not too shabby. I kept getting a cramp in my left foot, though. Not too good. I came home, had dinner, and then calculated my calories for the day. Since my damn doctor told me I was overweight and needed to lose weight, I decided to go on a 1500 calorie diet. I tried to stick to that before and it really worked. Granted I was starving by day 4, so I quit that diet. Hopefully I can stick to it. Unfortunately, I went over my calories by 800 today. That's a lot!!! And that's still less than I normall eat. I never factored in all the ice cream and chips I usually eat. So, I am completely depressed now. I just annoyed the crap out of Ben whining to him and shooting down all his solutions. I basically need to shrink my stomach so I'm not that hungry. I need to cut out fried food and pasta. No more pad thai. No more cheeseburgers and fries. Life is over as we know it. Hopefully it will all pay off and I will lose weight. I hate being one of those girls obsessed with her weight, but I am. I mean, a doctor has now told me to lose weight. I kinda need to worry about it. Sucky. Anyone have any suggestions on low-calorie foods? How about good recipes for vegetables? I hate vegetables. Okay, I'm off to bed, to sleep anxiously until I awake to check the scales to see if I lost any weight yet. Fingers crossed!!! Current Mood: annoyed (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, August 13th, 2006
6:33 pm	weekend notes I had this weekend off. It was wonderful. I loved every minute of it. I loved not working. It was fantastic. Here are some hilites! -I got my hair cut. It looks basically the same, but it's pretty. I love my new hairdresser. I feel prettier. -I thoroughly hate my neighbors upstairs. I was on the porch yesterday, talking on the phone, and saw a gigantic pice of a toe nail on my table. Apparently the people upstairs sweep everything off their porch and things fall b/w the cracks of their porch and onto my porch. This is usually cogarette ashes, but it's not toenails. Icky. -I made my famous artichoke dip for Meghan's birthday party. It was to die for!!! I also made these awesome pita triangles to go with the dip. Also fantastic. I could have sat by that dish all night, eating the entire thing. I didn't though. -We played Apples to Apples at Meghan's birthday. It is now my favorite game of all time. Everyone has 7 cards that have a noun written on them. The leader puts down a card with an adjective on it. Every player must put down a card that corresponds with that adjective, either using a direct correlation or using sick humor. Then one person judges to see which one is the best. Here are the best parts of the game: -the Adjective was "Overwhelming." Meghan puts down "Celine Dion." It did not win. It would have won if I was judging. -the Adjective was "Neglected." I won with "Choir Boys." That's really a golden ticket. Choir Boys can be used for pretty much any adjective and it's funny. -the Adjective was "Outrageous." I won with "Tom Cruise." Need say more??? -I attempted to finish Tania's t-shirt dress. It looked like crap. It would take too much time to finish it. Oh well. I think that's it. I need to mop the floors now and prep for tomorrow. I have orientation from 7:30 until noon. Then I swing by some lady's house to pick up her house key for when I house sit (btw, I'm getting $50 just to sleep at her house and take care of her dogs for a night. hell yeah!). I then go to NCWISE orientation fron 1-5. I need to make an appointment to get my physical done sometime then. Perhaps I can workout if I haven't passed out by then. Geez. Have I ever mentioned how much I hate working? Current Mood: calm Current Music: Ben Folds, all day long! (Comment on this)
Friday, August 11th, 2006
11:03 pm	I hate working I came to the conclusion this week that I hate working. I know, we all hate going to work. But I REALLY hate working. I started my new job this week. I had to get up at 6:30 to get ready and drive across town to my school. I complained every minute of it. What am I going to do when I actually have to be at work at 6:30?? That'll be no fun. I'm already dreading Monday when I have to be there at 7:15 for orientation. I worked a lazy day Tuesday from 8-2. I worked Wednesday from 8-11:30 and then worked at Banan from 12-5. I complained. I came home and took a nap...or I did something else. I remember! I managed to get home, have a bite to eat, then go to the gym, shower, talk to my mom, watch Project Runway with Kate, finish up laundry before passing out at 11:30. I worked Thursday from 8-1, then at Banana from 2-6. I complained as well. I ran some errands before going to Meghan and Zach's to have them cook me dinner as we watched "Bull Durham." Today I had stupid orientation from 9-11 and then drug testing. I came home, had lunch and passed out. I worked out, came home and had dinner, and have been crafting and cleaning ever since. I worked on paying my bills and realized I cannot get organized. I am paying half of them late. I am so not prepared for this. I can't be a working adult who wakes up at 5:30 and manages to work out 5 days a week, cook dinner, keep an apartment clean and manage to keep my cat alive. That is way too much work for me. How can I possibly work at Banana as well??? Thank Buddha I do not have a boyfriend that I have to spent time with. Granted I have a cat who beats me up when I'm not home often. Stupid cat. Ok, it's time for do the dishes, clean the kitchen, then work on the dress I am graciously making for my sister. It's going to look like crap, I know. Sigh. Current Mood: stressed Current Music: LFO: Every Other Time (4 Comments |Comment on this)